Benji Spam

Hi there Soulseekers!  My name is Benjamin Evans.  I currently reside in the UK and suffer from mild mental illness which is progressing into something more chronic.  I like to post fabricated text message conversations that I have with girls who only exist in my mind.  I do this in chat to try and hide the fact that I am possibly homosexual.  I scour the internet for pictures of girls and I post them in chat and claim that they were sent to me via cell phone.  This does not happen as the only girls numbers I have in my phonebook are my mothers and my sisters.  I like to write long, rambling diatribes that mean nothing at all but contain an awful lot of big words that I read in chat.  I do this in the hope that I will appear to be more intelligent but, due to my own short sightedness, it just makes me look stupid and I don’t realise this.  I fawn over the females in chat and act passively towards them in the hope that they will accept my facade.  I enjoy pretending to go to the gym and I like letting everyone know when I am “at the gym”.  If people see I am really fit then they will hopefully like me, even though I am just another lonely kid on Soulseek trying to make something of myself but trying in all the wrong places.  I try to spark up romance with females on the other side of the Atlantic.  This means that they are at a safe distance and I do not have to worry about physical contact with them.  I have a few favorites in the Indie room right now, namely Spir and Caroline.  Spir comes out on top because I always had a thing for the older woman.  I believe an older woman can show me the love that my own mother never showed me and she can provide the physical intimacy that I so crave with my mother and sister.