[Dec 24 11:41:01 am][peep88] merry xmas
[Dec 24 11:41:45 am][peep88] hmm
[Dec 24 11:41:51 am][peep88] a lot of countries
[Dec 24 11:41:54 am][peep88] celebrate on the 24th
[Dec 24 11:42:02 am][peep88] it might just be north america
[Dec 24 11:42:08 am][peep88] that celebrates on 25th
[Dec 24 11:42:29 am][peep88] in uk?
[Dec 24 11:42:44 am][peep88] no
[Dec 24 11:43:03 am][peep88] ok
[Dec 24 11:43:47 am][peep88] lol
[Dec 24 11:44:03 am][peep88] im at home
[Dec 24 11:44:12 am][peep88] most of the gifts under the tree are for me
[Dec 24 1:41:52 pm][peep88] hi
[Dec 24 1:42:03 pm][peep88] bored
[Dec 24 1:42:06 pm][peep88] full
[Dec 24 1:53:59 pm][peep88] if elliot from nz is here
[Dec 24 1:54:01 pm][peep88] please pm me
[Dec 24 1:54:30 pm][peep88] heyo
[Dec 24 5:26:50 pm][peep88] i wont be really sad when my parents die
[Dec 24 5:26:52 pm][peep88] i will be sad
[Dec 24 5:26:52 pm][peep88] ya
[Dec 24 5:26:55 pm][peep88] thats natural response
[Dec 24 5:26:56 pm][peep88] but
[Dec 24 5:27:02 pm][peep88] they have good life insurance policies
[Dec 24 5:27:07 pm][peep88] and id live much more comfortably
[Dec 24 5:27:12 pm][peep88] well its xmas really
[Dec 24 5:27:18 pm][peep88] idk why americans celebrate on the 25th
[Dec 24 5:27:25 pm][peep88] ive exceeded my sweets limit for today
[Dec 24 5:27:31 pm][peep88] cookies and chocolates
[Dec 24 5:27:32 pm][peep88] uh
[Dec 24 5:27:44 pm][peep88] for xmas dinner? you know, i`m not entirely sure
[Dec 24 5:27:51 pm][peep88] my mom seems to have some
[Dec 24 5:27:55 pm][peep88] serious plans for our supper
[Dec 24 5:27:59 pm][peep88] lol
[Dec 24 5:28:03 pm][peep88] because they are lazy, ignorant
[Dec 24 5:28:05 pm][peep88] gourmands
[Dec 24 5:28:21 pm][peep88] the fattest member of my family uhh
[Dec 24 5:28:24 pm][peep88] probably an aunt of mine
[Dec 24 5:28:28 pm][peep88] shes about 60 years old
[Dec 24 5:28:32 pm][peep88] and drinks heavily
[Dec 24 5:28:35 pm][peep88] if i had to guess
[Dec 24 5:28:39 pm][peep88] 190
[Dec 24 5:28:40 pm][peep88] ?
[Dec 24 5:28:42 pm][peep88] 180
[Dec 24 5:28:47 pm][peep88] yes
[Dec 24 5:28:50 pm][peep88] shes a large woman
[Dec 24 5:28:54 pm][peep88] she recently got remarried
[Dec 24 5:29:01 pm][peep88] to a very thin man
[Dec 24 5:29:03 pm][peep88] probably
[Dec 24 5:29:06 pm][peep88] i dont know her so well
[Dec 24 5:29:14 pm][peep88] she just sent me a photo of herself and her new hubby
[Dec 24 5:29:16 pm][peep88] in the mail
[Dec 24 5:29:24 pm][peep88] w/ some odd card i cannot read
[Dec 24 5:30:23 pm][peep88] iim on break
[Dec 24 5:30:26 pm][peep88] idk
[Dec 24 5:30:33 pm][peep88] im doing well academically
[Dec 24 5:30:36 pm][peep88] i hate my school though
[Dec 24 5:30:43 pm][peep88] i hate all the kids at my school lol
[Dec 24 5:30:57 pm][peep88] ahh i just finished semester with
[Dec 24 5:31:03 pm][peep88] 4 As and a B+
[Dec 24 5:31:20 pm][peep88] the B+ was in history of modern africa
[Dec 24 5:31:20 pm][peep88] lol
[Dec 24 5:31:29 pm][peep88] i slacked off on a major project
[Dec 24 5:31:44 pm][peep88] and turned in 4/5 of my papers late
[Dec 24 5:31:57 pm][peep88] i had reasonable excuse each time
[Dec 24 5:32:16 pm][peep88] my names got 1 S
[Dec 24 5:32:28 pm][peep88] ya true
[Dec 24 6:23:49 pm][peep88] aw man
[Dec 24 6:23:58 pm][peep88] why do i eat so much whenever i visit homem
[Dec 24 6:23:59 pm][peep88] lol
[Dec 24 6:24:07 pm][peep88] i can afford lots of groceries at my apartment
[Dec 24 6:24:18 pm][peep88] i just dont buy much besides basic ingredients
[Dec 24 6:24:50 pm][peep88] yea i love a huey p newton type man
[Dec 24 6:26:10 pm][peep88] i have an irl boyfriend who ive been with for a year.. i broke up with him around halloween and he fell into a deep depression, claiming he hadnt felt so bad in all his life and that he was having difficulty socializing at all, he sent me gifts in the mail
[Dec 24 6:26:11 pm][peep88] and was
[Dec 24 6:26:15 pm][peep88] sending sweet emails/texts
[Dec 24 6:26:20 pm][peep88] asking how i was doing
[Dec 24 6:26:28 pm][peep88] until finally asking if he could come visit
[Dec 24 6:26:31 pm][peep88] so i let him visit
[Dec 24 6:26:34 pm][peep88] and we are back together
[Dec 24 6:26:37 pm][peep88] anyway
[Dec 24 6:26:56 pm][peep88] the few weeks following my dumping him
[Dec 24 6:26:58 pm][peep88] were full of
[Dec 24 6:27:00 pm][bamberg] [peep88] i have an irl boyfriend who ive been with for a year.. i broke up with him around halloween and he fell into a deep depression, claiming he hadnt felt so bad in all his life and that he was having difficulty socializing at all, he sent me gifts in the mail
[Dec 24 6:27:07 pm][peep88] me talking to this very charming boy online
[Dec 24 6:27:09 pm][peep88] same age as me
[Dec 24 6:27:13 pm][peep88] but he lives in new zealand
[Dec 24 6:27:19 pm][peep88] he wants to marry me
[Dec 24 6:27:26 pm][peep88] i find him to be very perfect for me
[Dec 24 6:27:35 pm][peep88] he can visit in 2014
[Dec 24 6:27:42 pm][peep88] should i stay with my irl boyfriend?
[Dec 24 6:27:47 pm][peep88] or should i take a chance
[Dec 24 6:27:51 pm][peep88] and meet the nz lad?
[Dec 24 6:27:55 pm][peep88] irl means in real life
[Dec 24 6:28:05 pm][peep88] nah, ant_sunrise i will be 20 in 2014
[Dec 24 6:28:10 pm][peep88] its time i search for a companion
[Dec 24 6:28:12 pm][peep88] for life
[Dec 24 6:28:20 pm][peep88] i am ready for a husband-to-be
[Dec 24 6:29:13 pm][peep88] my irl boyfriend said this " i truly want to spend my life with you, i`m just not at that point in my life yet"
[Dec 24 6:29:50 pm][peep88] the nz boy says he definitely wants to marry me, but he also wants to wait until we have graduated and till enough money is saved for a private wedding and a quaint honeymoon
[Dec 24 6:30:06 pm][peep88] i could meet the nz and still keep my irl boyfriend
[Dec 24 6:30:09 pm][peep88] thatd be fcked up though
[Dec 24 6:30:13 pm][peep88] i couldnt bring myself to do it
[Dec 24 6:30:24 pm][peep88] i also still have feelings for cisgenderboi
[Dec 24 6:30:32 pm][peep88] who i at one point sincerely believed id marry one day
[Dec 24 6:30:40 pm][peep88] yea
[Dec 24 6:30:44 pm][peep88] i am open to older guy
[Dec 24 6:30:50 pm][peep88] mid to late 20s
[Dec 24 6:30:55 pm][peep88] theres actually a candidate for that
[Dec 24 6:31:03 pm][peep88] but i sortof bad mouthed him
[Dec 24 6:31:50 pm][peep88] lol come on i am not a slut
[Dec 24 6:33:49 pm][peep88] im at least a 7
[Dec 24 6:34:04 pm][peep88] i wont name a number higher
[Dec 24 6:34:08 pm][peep88] cos its relative
[Dec 24 6:34:11 pm][peep88] to the voter
[Dec 24 6:34:17 pm][peep88] but id say
[Dec 24 6:34:22 pm][peep88] unless the man is into very heavy set
[Dec 24 6:34:23 pm][peep88] broads
[Dec 24 6:34:39 pm][peep88] that id score at least a 7 for average person
[Dec 24 6:34:50 pm][peep88] looks decay
[Dec 24 6:35:11 pm][peep88] the point is that i look good enough now and that i have a solid 15 years left of
[Dec 24 6:35:17 pm][peep88] charming looks
[Dec 24 6:35:26 pm][peep88] na no pit hair currently but legs are fully furry
[Dec 24 6:35:44 pm][peep88] lol
[Dec 24 6:36:33 pm][peep88] yes
[Dec 24 6:36:44 pm][peep88] lol
[Dec 24 6:36:54 pm][peep88] i want these speakers
[Dec 24 6:37:02 pm][peep88] audio engine a5+
[Dec 24 6:37:07 pm][peep88] any1 have or heard them?
[Dec 24 6:43:58 pm][peep88] my irl boyfriend: 6'3, jewish, middle class parents from south florida, graduating from college in a few months, will probably work in another lab straight out of college before going to grad school, he is a programmer working in bioinformatics - genome research, dna sequencing, etc. dreamy internet new zealand boy: 6'1, my age, mod of the forum i met him on, has a higher literacy than i do, more insightful than i could dream of being, shows expertise in marxist literature, a teen maoist (ideologically, at least, he is not an activist or something), incredibly sweet and affectionate, talks to me for hours on end, has very lovely taste in music, definitely wants to marry me
[Dec 24 6:44:10 pm][peep88] he studies roughly the same thing that i do
[Dec 24 6:44:32 pm][peep88] and his plans are pretty similar to mine, either go to grad school or teach english in asia
[Dec 24 6:44:36 pm][peep88] shalom
[Dec 24 6:44:44 pm][peep88] now, my actual boyfriend
[Dec 24 6:44:54 pm][peep88] it is very apparent that he is committed to me and cares about me
[Dec 24 6:44:59 pm][peep88] and has deep affection for me
[Dec 24 6:45:00 pm][peep88] however
[Dec 24 6:45:06 pm][peep88] he is more stilted
[Dec 24 6:45:23 pm][peep88] doesnt endlessly shower me
[Dec 24 6:45:29 pm][peep88] with sweet words
[Dec 24 6:45:58 pm][peep88] well, i have picked up
[Dec 24 6:46:00 pm][peep88] east asia studies
[Dec 24 6:46:08 pm][peep88] am a dabbler
[Dec 24 6:46:30 pm][peep88] i genuinely would like to live in korea or japan
[Dec 24 6:46:47 pm][peep88] thailand and the philipines are just
[Dec 24 6:46:56 pm][peep88] too scary lmao
[Dec 24 6:47:04 pm][peep88] would be afraid of being raped on a bus
[Dec 24 6:47:07 pm][peep88] or something
[Dec 24 6:47:17 pm][peep88] pilldozer
[Dec 24 6:47:27 pm][peep88] didnt you meet a special lady online/
[Dec 24 6:47:27 pm][peep88] ?
[Dec 24 6:47:34 pm][peep88] whos to say i cant meet a special lad
[Dec 24 6:47:36 pm][peep88] on the web
[Dec 24 6:47:47 pm][peep88] why stick with my irl boyfriend
[Dec 24 6:47:52 pm][peep88] convenience? easier?
[Dec 24 6:47:58 pm][peep88] a year put into it already?
[Dec 24 6:48:11 pm][peep88] lol
[Dec 24 6:48:58 pm][peep88] whats to catfish though.. the net boy told me he lives at home. also that hes poor - he goes to school and isnt an exceptional student
[Dec 24 6:49:03 pm][peep88] i dont care what he looks like
[Dec 24 6:49:06 pm][peep88] in fact i barely know
[Dec 24 6:49:24 pm][peep88] i dont see what he could be tricking me with
[Dec 24 6:50:34 pm][peep88] yeah but if we have already built an idea of what we'd like to get
[Dec 24 6:50:38 pm][peep88] out of a relationship
[Dec 24 6:50:45 pm][peep88] then theres a direction for it
[Dec 24 6:50:48 pm][peep88] and something to aspire to
[Dec 24 6:51:05 pm][peep88] u already asked
[Dec 24 6:53:23 pm][peep88] you forget that i lack sexual inclinations really
[Dec 24 6:53:38 pm][peep88] physical affection hardly matters to me
[Dec 24 6:53:47 pm][peep88] romantic solidarity appeals to me
[Dec 24 6:54:34 pm][peep88] just, being in person then?
[Dec 24 6:54:43 pm][peep88] dont forget my irl boyfriend is still long distance
[Dec 24 6:54:51 pm][peep88] 4 hours away
[Dec 24 6:55:01 pm][peep88] i see him once a month, twice if im lucky
